Haji...

kitaorang yg dok pening kepala setelkan beg and everything...

damia.. in pink.. one of my brother's friend dok dukung die..
my uncle and my mother

my brother dok pening.. haha..

My mother has just left for her hajj this year...
safe to say.. i am a bit downcast ( if that's a word)
Selamat pergi and kembali dengan selamat .. Insya-Allah
She went together with her younger brother ( my uncle) and his wife ( my aunt)
expected date of return - 3rd of february 2007..

upon arrival kat tabung haji kelana jaya.. tetiba selipar my mother putus.. haha kesian my brother kena balik pi ambik kat rumah..


p/s: beneath all the rugged and hard exterior.. everyone's just a softie inside.. hahaha..

News... Doha...

Indian athlete fails gender test

A top Indian woman athlete who won a silver medal at a recent regional championship has failed a gender test, officials say.

Link to BBC news...

Random news...

'A South African man has been fined $140 for taking a week off work, telling his employers he was pregnant. Harles Sibindana, 27, stole a certificate from a clinic during his pregnant girlfriend's checkup, a court near Johannesburg heard. He then added his own details to the note and submitted it and took seven days off work, seemingly unaware that only women consult gynaecologists' - The BBC.

'A German passenger train was brought to a shuddering halt when a soccer ball flew from a nearby pitch and hit a brake pipe, triggering an automatic braking system, police said on Tuesday. "A local youth team were playing soccer at the time on a pitch near the railway line in Emsdetten, near Muenster. No one has claimed the shot that stopped the train, the spokesman said' - Reuters.

'A video game that depicts a crusade of violence by Christians could be heading for the bestseller charts this Christmas, even though it has been condemned by Muslims and secularists. Players are ordered to convert or kill to advance to the next level and remodel America as a Christian-controlled state, and establish its world vision of Christ's dominion' - The Times.


hmmm.. having been updating for quite a while.. almost about 3 weeks.. i've been quite occupied with O&G and all..

hope to update the blog soon about deeparaya and O&G posting...
alas.. just too lazy now to upload the pictures.. soo another time.. hopefully ahahahha...

Darth Vader .. my favorite villain of all time..

i was just scouring the net for minus one songs to use as the ringtone for my phone.. came across the imperial march .. brought back memories of the good 'old' days.. haha
i was a fanatic for star wars back then .. episode 4-6... episod 1-2 was a bit mushy for me.. but episode 3 redeemed itself..

so here are some clips of darth vader

imperial march orchestra


darth vader vs japanese police


kill vader


after the first death star blew up .. must watch


Requiem for a dream

The conspiracy part 2...

Kenyirs Forever....

Sekejap takda

Sekejap ada..

Get with the program cik yuhana oi...

hahahaha....

The Conspiracy...

dalam library dok testing capacity of my new phone which is quite old le kalu nak kira sekarang

thursday the 19th of October .. i could smell a conspiracy in the air...
hmm rahman was persisting that we should go 'wild' and pi moreh kat A&W after terawih..
i wouldn't really put A&W and wild in the same sentence.. haha
also the discreet conversations behind my back..
hmm haha anyway... just wanted to say thanks for the birthday 'surprise'
thanks a million.... and also for the 'psychotic kenyir card' .. be sure to get your come uppance with interest.... haha..

semua muka tak sabar nak makan

p/s : to anyone reading this... nak hadiah yg mahal...

bought a new phone recently.. using MY money which i accumulated over a few months model 6131.. nokia flip phone.. this is the first time i'm getting a new phone on my own free will.. previously i wouldn't really mind any type of phone given to me...
bought it on the 14th of October and basically it still hasn't even been 1 month since i got the phone.. subsequently... kak dija and yuhana pun tukar phone baru.. hahaha kaki tiru =p

Signs..

In the old country (England)the following signs were posted.

Sign in a London department store:
BARGAIN BASEMENT UPSTAIRS


In an office:
WOULD THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE STEP LADDER YESTERDAY PLEASE BRING IT BACK OR FURTHER STEPS WILL BE TAKEN


Outside a farm:
HORSE MANURE
50p PER PRE-PACKED BAG
20p DO-IT-YOURSELF


In an office:
AFTER TEA BREAK STAFF SHOULD EMPTY THE TEAPOT AND STAND UPSIDE DOWN ON THE DRAINING BOARD


On a church door:
THIS IS THE GATE OF HEAVEN. ENTER YE ALL BY THIS DOOR. (THIS DOOR IS KEPT LOCKED BECAUSE OF THE DRAFT. PLEASE USE SIDE DOOR.)


English sign in a German cafe:
MOTHERS, PLEASE WASH YOUR HANS BEFORE EATING


Outside a secondhand shop:
WE EXCHANGE ANYTHING - BICYCLES, WASHING MACHINES ETC. WHY NOT BRING YOUR WIFE ALONG AND GET A WONDERFUL BARGAIN?


Sign outside a new town hall which was to be opened by the Prince of Wales:
THE TOWN HALL IS CLOSED UNTIL OPENING. IT WILL REMAIN CLOSED AFTER BEING OPENED. OPEN TOMORROW.


Outside a photographer's studio:
OUT TO LUNCH: IF NOT BACK BY FIVE, OUT FOR DINNER ALSO


Seen at the side of a Sussex road:
SLOW CATTLE CROSSING. NO OVERTAKING FOR THE NEXT 100 YRS.


Outside a disco:
SMARTS IS THE MOST EXCLUSIVE DISCO IN TOWN. EVERYONE WELCOME


Sign warning of quicksand:
QUICKSAND. ANY PERSON PASSING THIS POINT WILL BE DROWNED. BY ORDER OF THE DISTRICT COUNCIL.


Notice sent to residents of a Wiltshire parish:
DUE TO INCREASING PROBLEMS WITH LETTER LOUTS AND VANDALS, WE MUST ASK ANYONE WITH RELATIVES BURIED IN THE GRAVEYARD TO DO THEIR BEST TO KEEP THEM IN ORDER.


Notice in a dry cleaner's window:
ANYONE LEAVING THEIR GARMENTS HERE FOR MORE THAN 30 DAYS WILL BE DISPOSED OF.


Sign on motorway garage:
PLEASE DO NOT SMOKE NEAR OUR PETROL PUMPS. YOUR LIFE MAY NOT BE WORTH MUCH BUT OUR PETROL IS.


Notice in health food shop window:
CLOSED DUE TO ILLNESS


Spotted in a safari park:
ELEPHANTS PLEASE STAY IN YOUR CAR


Seen during a conference:
FOR ANYONE WHO HAS CHILDREN AND DOESN'T KNOW IT, THERE IS A DAY CARE ON THE FIRST FLOOR


Notice in a field:
THE FARMER ALLOWS WALKERS TO CROSS THE FIELD FOR FREE, BUT THE BULL CHARGES


Message on a leaflet:
IF YOU CANNOT READ, THIS LEAFLET WILL TELL YOU HOW TO GET LESSONS


Sign on a repair shop door:
WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING. (PLEASE KNOCK HARD ON THE DOOR - BELL DOESN'T WORK)


Sign at Norfolk farm gate:
BEWARE! I SHOOT EVERY TENTH TRESPASSER AND THE NINTH ONE HAS JUST LEFT


Spotted in a toilet in a London office block:
TOILET OUT OF ORDER. PLEASE USE FLOOR BELOW.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

i would like to wish everyone. a happy aidilfitri...
maaf zahir dan batin..
drive safe... drive smart..
selamat pulang ke kampung halaman memasing..
and thanks for all the birthday wishes...

to all the old farts...

i'm sorry for the late wishes .. but i just wanted to wish all my friends whose birthdays are in October.
a happy birthday..
May Allah bless you
and may all your wishes come true all you old farts
this in particular is directed to Kak Dija ngan Ezran..
happy birthday again...

ps: Kalau CP ngan Moti Lal berapa case aa dia nak...

RMK-1 is still under review and a gate can't be given on when it'll come out..
another thing is that i would like to wish Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al Mubarak(even though belated) and selamat mencarik lailatul qadar.. usaha2.. bile dah dapat.. doakan aku pass exam ye... insya-Allah
and selamat hari raya and maaf zahir dan batin...

Allahyarham Ustaz Nik.... Al-Fatihah .. May Allah bless you..

i'm sorry that i have been able to update my blog with a bit more frequently.. time is at hand.. but it's just that i'm not really motivated sangat to update it..
returning to the topic.. 2 weeks prior to the start of ramadhan .. my ustaz . ustaz nik.. passed away of old age on a friday night..

I've known ustaz nik since i was in standard 3 and that was when i started learning from him how to read the quran, tauhid and feqah.. i never went to SAR ..
i still remember vividly the first day i met ustaz nik.. i was watching tv.. most probably dok tengok 'gaban' at 3.00p.m. on a cloudy afternoon.. from that day on i learnt from him.. starting dari muqadam to buku iqra' then on to al-quran and later to tauhid and feqah..

ustaz nik was a very kind and soft spoken person.. at the same time he was firm and stern .. but he never raised his voice in anger.. when i was standard 3 .. his age was probably 60+ and now i'm 22.. so i knew him for about 13 years..
he was a patient man and he thought quite a few of my friends jugak...
my parents paid rm30 every month for him and we had to force him to gradually increase the fees.. lama kelamaan we managed to force him to accept 50 then 60 then sampai 100.. he just accepted what people gave..

Haha there were times when i manage to irk him.. biasa le.. pukul 3.00 petang on weekdays.. all the prime shows were showing.. ada ultraman,gaban etc..
i'll always see him around the neighbourhood riding his metallic scooter ngan half-cut helmet die..
another unique thing about him.. memang i think dia hafaz quran.. yg lagi menariknya is that he's able to read quran nih terbalik.. die takyah nak pusingkan.. dah biasa mengajar le katakan..

the last time i saw him was dekat pasar tani a few months back but even then i didn't have the chance to greet him.. the last time i had a conversation with him was when he came to my house for my brother's wedding..

hmmm prior to his passing.. i was thinking of visiting him in syawal this year..
i was really saddened to learn that he passed away .. i was still in senawang having breakfast the day he passed away and i rushed home the moment i received the news..
didn't manage nak ziarah die punya jenazah but i was just in time for the jenazah prayers.. quite a few of my friends were there too.. formerly mengaji ngan dia jugak..
the moment solat jenazah tuh habis.. hujan turun mencurah2 sampaikan banjir the whole of KL and PJ... subhanAllah..

i and mior went utk pi tgk dia dikebumikan.. it was hard to see someone who thought you for so long a period.. dimasukkan ke dalam liang lahad.. and ditimbuskan dengan tanah.. but he is in a better place now inysa-Allah..

i say thanks to the person
who taught me how to read the quran..
who taught me how to pray..
who taught me to be a good person..
who had patience with me..
who had confidence in me..
from my heart ...
i say thanks..
and May Allah bless you

Al-Fatihah buat Ustaz Nik..
i will always remember u in my prayers..

Pembentangan RMK1 (coming soon)

i'm too lazy to write anything...

i dunno.. i just feel... lazy... but i have a few things i've been wanting to write..
how paradoxical...

it's ramadhan.. i'm having my ortho exams on thursday.. it's been a nice system.. all in all.. one of the better ones i've had.. in comparison to internal medicine..

harapan ramadhan..
Man Bai & Raihan

Ku mengharap Ramadhan kali
ini penuh makna
Agar dapat kulalui dengan
sempurna

Selangkah demi selangkah
Setahun sudah pun berlalu
Masa yang pantas berlalu
Hingga tak terasa ku berada
Di bulan Ramadhan semula

Puasa satu amalan
Sebagaimana yang diperintah Nya
Moga dapat ku lenturkan
Nafsu yang selalu
membelenggu diri tiada
henti-henti

Tak ingin kubiarkan Ramadhan
berlalu saja
Tuhan pimpinlah daku yang
lemah mengharungi
segalanya dengan sabar

Kita memohon pada Tuhan
diberikan kekuatan
Ku merayu pada Tuhan
diterima amalan
Selangkah demi selangkah…
dengan Rahmat Mu oh
Tuhanku..ku tempuh jua

Kelantan trip..

during the holidays.. me, rahman, yuhana, fizzi n hanisyam.. packed our bags and went to kelantan for a wedding kat machang.. rumah wis.. it looked like that he was getting married but alas.. you people can breathe a sigh of relief.. dia punya kakak nikah.. i went there masa sem 7 dok sibuk exam.. somewhere around the the 27th of august..

i arrived a day early.. compared to rahman n the geng.. i took a flight.. org nak sponsor.. kita naik je le.. however.. i had to wake up at an unholy hour (5am) to get ready to go to the airport.. walhal flight pukul 8.30 more or less.. arrived in sepang at .. 7.00.. i was the first one at the gate.. huhu... arrived in kelantan at 9.. kuar2 tgk byk gile sepanduk.. i knew i was famous but didn't know that it was to that extent.. haha it was shortlived joy.. rupanya diaorang dok sambut PM and apparently i was on the same flight as rosyam nor.. not that i really cared pun...
went there.. annas picked me up.. pegi balik rumah die.. met his parents.. who were very nice by the way.. his father was my father's junior in upm dulu..

met them.. pi beli barang jap.. pi cuci mata sepanjang jalan.. ahhaha n contemplated going to kampung hadhari.. another name for jomheboh.. but.. i dun't really do these kind of things.. not my cup of tea.. so we went to machang..jumpa wis. balik dari machang.. tidur 3 jam rasanya.. letih gile because the night before.. tuan mufti datang mengajar at my house and i had to serve 25 additional guests dari padang temu melaka...

that nite.. me and annas went and met up with cherap kat stadium kb.. dok tgk bola kat kedai2 kat situ.. we sat there for 4 hours i think.. datang jauh2 melepak je.. haha
the day after .. went to ktm wakaf bharu dengan annas to pick up kenyir2 riang yg naik keretapi.. they weren't very riang getting off from the train.. haha semua org dok letih sebab dapat bed atas..

so the picture starts here...

KTM wakaf bharu

kedai nasi berlauk pohon ceri..



semua muka2 lapar..



dalam perjalanan balik dari pengkalan kubur.. haha



makan nasi ulam kat KB punya pasar kraftangan




makan kat mana tah malam tuh lepas balik dari pasar borong..


makan2.. lapar... dok makan nasi air.. @ bubur..


kat umah wis.. went to machang in two cars.. i went with cherap,lydia ngan didi..


lydia ngan nina dah fly.. haha selamat duit...







kontrol2



semua muka pancit and muka nak bertolak balik



gile menarik wau nih



Didi dok pura2 buat air...

Disturbing pictures of the day... gang fight haha..

itu le gaduh je kerja.. haha takdale.. dok main futsal.. dok nak cuba tanduk bola with my spectacles on..

sick picture of the day....

satellite picture of my house
click me...

3.56am september 2 2006

hmmm i'm still up.. and approaching sleep..
but.. i feel fuzzy and warm inside.. it's nice..
hepi hepi hepi...

hmm leaving for my bed now..
i'll be posting my pictures from the trip to kelantan and also when i sent lydia,nina,aizuddin ngan pentrox pi klia..
yup. they've left for universitas andalas, padang , indonesia...
agak surreal le gak yg diaorang dah pi..
haha anyway i still feel warm and fuzzy.. haha

logging off..

the 'answer' of the riddle...

according to bruce willis's character in 16 blocks

i'd ask my best friend to take the car and take the old person away and stay there with the girl of my dreams..

a riddle?

imagine a scenario..

your driving in a car..
ur at a bus stop.. a hurricane is coming towards the bus stop..
and there are three people at the bus stop..
an old makcik/aunty
your best friend
the girl of your dreams..

but ur car only has space for one..
who would you choose? what would you do?
haha kononnya soalan nih can gauge what type of person you are..

haha sape dapat jawab buleh dapat hadiah..

got the question from a movie..
cerita 16 blocks.. best2..

Pictures.. worth a thousand words.. haha

central committee...

Gabby dah fly... aaaaahhh

Celebrate harijadi pakcik kat secret recipe...

backstabbing club.. meeting ke 2.. president tidak hadir..

meeting ke 3 rasanya.. president dan menteri luar hadir.. dan juga si ronald

man ko buat ape tuh man?

harijadi ecot..

nape muka aku cam ada bell's palsy je?

cepatle ambik gambor.. semua org lapor dah nih

we celebrated her birthday recently.. here are the pictures..
happy birthday esah..
may all ur wishes come true and may Allah bless you always..

Nurin damia and ain the resakse

this will be one of my last few posts before i go on holiday.. intermittently i'll be back in seremban due to the fact that i need to finish off my research proposal..
lagi2 budak2 sem 7 nak exam..
hmm anyway my trip to China is canceled but most probably i'll be going to Kelantan from the 20th to the 22nd other than that i'll spend the holidays at home.. lain le kalu tetiba ada program..
besides that later this month.. si lydia n nina , aizuddin are leaving for indonesia.. so most probably nak kena pi klia later..

anyway.. the video is of my niece.. dia dah buleh JALAN
haha after 1 and 3 months i think.. she just recovered from a bout of viral croups..

my other niece , ain just had her exams recently..
she took 6 papers if i'm not mistaken..
4 subjects were counted for the rankings in her standard. and i think those were
mathematics
pemahaman
penulisan or sumthing
and BI

for mathematics , pemahaman and penulisan she got 100 marks for all of them , thus she qualifies as a resakse in my eyes.. haha
that's scary..
but even then it's not suprising.. with the amount of er.. workbooks she does.. ish2.. dunnno where she inherited the genes.. most probably the genes skipped a generation(my generation)
haha

she's still waiting for her BI results anyway..
in conclusion.. resakse... one i'm proud of haha..

a blast from the past..

ultraman imu..

marital bliss and frog juice anyone?

It has been the court case of the summer.

Tommy Sheridan, the former leader of the Scottish Socialist party, is suing the News of the World for libel in a case that has included witnesses' tales of 'extra-marital affairs, cocaine-sniffing, sex romps and spanking.' On Monday, the trial reached its zenith when Tommy Sheridan, defending Tommy Sheridan, called upon Mrs Sheridan to speak in the defence of Tommy Sheridan.

'Asked if she believed the accusations that her husband had had affairs, been to swinging clubs or taken cocaine, she said "no". "There's no way I would be here. In fact neither would you. You would be drowned in the Clyde. I would be appearing in the high court for your murder,"' reports The Guardian.

'The court had previously heard from former SSP activist Katrine Trolle who claimed she had had sex with Mr Sheridan in the couple's home and that he had given her a glass of wine.

"Red wine?" Mrs Sheridan tutted. "You wouldn't know one end of a wine bottle to the next. You wouldn't know how to open it. You wouldn't even know where it was kept."

'Asked if she had read the News of the World stories, she said yes. She was surprised by a claim that her husband had ice cubes rolled around his body. "You're like a monkey, so anybody that was rolling an ice cube round your body would have had a hair ball in their throat," she said, before turning to the jury. " He's covered in hair from head to toe. He looks like a gorilla."'

On the day it was announced that a record one in four marriages now ends in divorce, how refreshing to be reminded that there are a few couples still enjoying the pleasures of marital bliss.

and another thing

frog juice anyone? (click me!!)

you'll never walk alone

To whom it may concern

To whom it may apply and be of relevance...
to those who have had the feeling of helplessness..
to those who feel like letting go..
to those who the world is suffocating ..
to those who feel like crap..
to those who feel shortchanged..
to those who feel tired of the journey..
to the lethargic ones..
to those who feel abandoned..

perservere...
fight..
struggle..
never lose faith..
defy the odds..
reenergize..
hang on..
hold on..
overcome the obstacles..
scr*w learned helplessness..
we are the writers of our destiny..
it is in our hands..
we chose our paths..
we work towards it..
insya-Allah..
and we will never be abandoned by HIM..

az-Zumar 53
.. janganlah berputus asa dengan rahmat Allah...

when we are down to nothing.. Allah is up to something..
Faith sees the invisible..
believes the incredible..
receives the impossible..

you will never walk alone....

a song at 2.36 in the morning..

suddenly i feel like posting up a song...
pulled this clip of you tube.. it's a song by staind.. nice song.. nice clip..



Everything Changes

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.

[Chorus:]
But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.

[Chorus]

When it's just me and you.
Who knows what we could do.
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day.

[Chorus]

Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word.

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?.
It wouldn't change how you feel.

sidetracked .. 13/6/2006

haha i've been sidetracked from my post ' summary .. in 10 words.. screw the ten words"
haha actually i really wanted to put all the things that has been happening.. haha tapi biasa le.. i bz..

i left off on the brink of my presentation with DK.. not really my presentation..
we were due to have a CP with him on Monday which was on... hmm let me check.. monday 22nd of may.. i had to come back early as i mentioned before.. haha monday.. we went to ward 3b.. dah le LAMA GILE tunggu dia datang.. we were supposed to see him at 8am.. tapi he wasn't there.. he was doing his rounds in 3A.. haha that was the first time i was in the wards by 7.45a.m. .. haha DK induced le gamaknya.. seeing as that he wasn't there.. i took the chance.. to jalan2 sana sini..
tgk2 procedure.. my group most of them ambik kerusi.. kumpul dekat2 ngan kaunter wad.. haha didn't really want nak berkumpul kat sana. sia2 je karang kalu si DK nampak.. haha dah tentu dia tak suka..
we waited until 9am and dia tak muncul lagi.. dia saja je nak seksa semua org.. haha semua org pagi tuh sakit perut je.. haha DK induced abdominal pain..kena buat research pasal benda nih..
hmm basically semua masa tuh dah duduk2 dah.. except for me, annas ngan yuhana.. dok berjalan2 dalam wad looking for something interesting.. hmm dah2 tuh.. diaorang pun duduk gak with the whole group.. haha this is to portray how bored we were dah menunggu dia. at the same time takut.. haha masa tuh dok mengamalkan prinsip LG.. sambil2 tunggu DK dok borak ngan student nurse berinitial SN dari kelantan.. hahaha memang takda kerja tul.. sayangnya dia lagi tue setahun... =p

after that DK came in after quite awhile , he came in straight.. pegi kat satu bed... and asked someone to present the patient punya case.. nasib le it wasn't mine.. my patient was in the toilet dok mandi-manda nak kena discharge.. haha we spent quite a long time with the patient yg DK suruh present tuh..
dia dok suruh describe patient tuh.. haha semua try le.. patient ada canula la, patient flat on the bed.. patient confused la.. haha in the end.. ape yg dia nak was
the patient appears to be very ill , which shows that he needs prompt and close attention from the attending staff.. he stressed VERY ILL haha.. talk about stating the obvious.. but in a way.. i liked him in a sense. that maybe he's a very humane and patient oriented.. which is nice..

hmmm i assisted in suturing a patient's head and also performed a proctoscope on a patient in pd... hahaha..

the exams were stressful to say the least.. but alhamdulilah i passed all the exams for fam med and surgery albeit borderline passes... passes nevertheless...

i've started internal med posting and i'm more or less enjoying the posting.. i'm posted in dato kew's punya wad.. she's very pleasant and nice.. but she has the tendency to squeeze answers out of you..

there's been a few notable happenings in the ward..

i've nearly been bitten twice by my patients.. one was very passive.. and when the doctor tried to prick a needle.. he became reactive and tried to bite my hand off.. nasib sempat mengelak..
the second incident.. the patient tetiba bgn.. dia berjaya pull off dia punya restraints and wanted to bite his wife.. i head to hold the head and hands..ish2.. lepas nih kena menambahkan kekuatan utk restrain patient lagi..

er as u see this post has been in my draft section for the past one month.. and i have no intention of carrying on with this post.. huhu dah lama dah habis..

World Cup 2006.. has passed me by.. haha

Kau Yang Satu

Kaulah Yang Maha Esa
Kaulah Yang Maha Pengasih
Kaulah Yang Maha Penyayang
Tiada hidup tanpaMu

Kaulah Yang Maha Agung
Kaulah Yang Maha Mengetahui
Tuhan dunia akhirat
Tiada aku tanpaMu

Bilaku rasa pilu
Bilaku rasa resah
Bilaku kekosongan
Kau tempatku mengadu
OH Tuhan yang satu
Engkaulah Tuhan yang satu

Segala puji-pujianku
Tujukan padaMU..padaMU
Dan hidup dan matiku hanyalah
UntukMu..untukMu...untukMu


the world cup is starting in five minutes..
italy vs france..

both my favourite teams were thrown out of the cup.. argentina and holland..

but my old teams are playing in the finals..
on form.. italy will win.. but there's a sense of inevitability that somehow maybe france can win..
this will be zidane's last game as a professional footballer...
au revoir monsieur zidane...

it was a joy watching u play...

here's to hoping that a fitting farewell for your illustrious carrier...

Allez Les Blues...

Kipasa?? Ole....

I officially have nothing better to do..

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the
question.
No cheating!

How am I feeling today?:
Frank Sinatra- My Way.. haha this is how i've been feeling for the past 6 years.. my father's favourite song

Will I get far in life?
Jangan Takut Gelap .. Tasya ft Sheila On 7
haha go into the unknown.. without fear.. =p

How do my friends see me?
Maksim- Flight of the bumblebee?
more like flight of the bumblebelly.. haha

Where will I get Married?:
Selimut Putih - Hijjaz
hmm sounds bleak.. huhu...bila izrail datang memanggillll....

What is my best friend's theme song?:
Jendela Hati - Saujana - WTF?? biar betul..

What is the story of my life?:
Elton John - Something About The Way You Look Tonight
hmm no comments here haha

What is/was highschool like?:
All American Rejects - Too Far Gone
yep.. all in the past..

How can I get ahead in life?:
Right Said Fred - I'm Too sexy?? hahahahahhahahahahha
sexayyyyyyyyyy!!

What is the best thing about me?:
Getaran Jiwa - P.Ramlee & Sudirman
bangkai.. what are u implying? ko nak kata aku sentimental ke apa.. pukul karang..

How is today going to be?
Alicia Keys - Karma
hmmm ade org nak balas dendam kat aku ke?
what goes around comes around.. the wheel of life

What is in store for this weekend?:
Pearl Jam - Last Kiss
nauzubillah......

What song describes my parents?:
I'll Be Your Crying Shoulder - Edwin McCain
=)

My Grandparents:
France National Anthem - Michael Sardou , hahaha
hmm tak tahu le grandparents aku french.. haha i know my grandmother was chinese and adopted by a malay family

How is my life going?:
Deep Purple - Soldier of fortune
ape dok lagu sentimental je nih..

What song will they play at my funeral?:
Jaclyn Victor - Wajah
hmm...

How does the world see me?:
Bagaikan Sakti - M.Nasir & Siti Nurhaliza
aku memang penuh ngan kesaktian

Will I have a happy life?:
P.Ramlee - Sedangkan Lidah lagi tergigit
does this mean no then? haha

What do my friends really think of me?:
Spider - Relaku Pujuk
haha pleaseeeeeeeee......

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Sheila on 7 - Sahabat Sejati
we people have a normal relationship...

Will I ever have children?
Berhenti Berharap - Siti Nurhaliza
Keji dan kejam

What is some good advice?:
Waktu Yang Tepat Untuk Berpisah - Sheila on 7
errr...

What is my signature dancing song?:
Live - Heaven
i get annoyed by this song actually

What do I think my current theme song is?:
Julia - Exists
dunno anyone named julia.. julia roberts kenal la

What does everyone else think my current
theme song is?:
Bertahan Di Sana - Sheila on 7
nice song actually

What type of women do you like?
Asma-ul-Husna - Hijjaz
wallahuwa'lam...

hmmm... i'm mildly to moderately depressed.. most probably..

hmmm tomorrow i have surgery and fam med punya mcq and now i feel like.. hmm somewhere like .. undesrcibable ( if there's such a word) .. my back is sore.. a bit more irritable.. mentally sluggish.. trying to motivate myself.. trying to assure myself everything will be ok .. insya-Allah...

"Allah will suffice you against them , and HE is the All-Hearer the All-Knoweth"
Al-Quran chapter 2 verse 137

"And put your trust in the Ever Living One Who dies not"
Al-Quran chapter 25 verse 58

"Perhaps Allah may bring a victory or decision according to His will"
Al-Quran chapter 5 verse 52

"None besides Allah can avert it,(or advance or delay it)"
Al-Quran chapter 53 verse 58

"But whosoever turns away from My reminder (neither believes in this Quran nor acts on its orders, etc.) verily for him is a life of hardship"
Al-Quran chapter 20 verse 124

i'm laughing at myself now.. after every exams that i've gone through.. at the end of every one of them.. i'll say to myself " i have to do better next time" "no more last minute studying" but we know the outcomes of these promises.. apabila berjanji , tidak dipenuhi.. hmm sounds familiar.. maybe there's some underlying pathology.. even with that said.. in the context of tomorrow's exam.. maybe it's too late.. but for the future.. there's still hope.. if only i can pinpoint where i've gone wrong...
i'm just leaving this on the blog as a reminder to myself.. everytime i put it in my brain.. it seems to slip away..
wallahuwa'lam

dr loh keng yin : kita mesti muhasabah diri...

to all the people( you know who you are ) thanks for the support.. much appreciated..

it's not us.. it's HIM..

As-Syua'ra ayat 80
chapter 26 verse 80

"dan apabila aku sakit, dialah Tuhan yang menyembuhkan penyakitku "

taken from
ayat syifa by al-syeikh abi qassim al-qusyairi

Summary.. in 10 words.. haha screw the ten words..

well.. it's been an eventful 10 days.. more or less... i would have wanted to post most of things that happened earlier.. but biasa le.. tiada masa.. i bz le katakan.. haha

let me carry on where i left.. i left at the eve of the uefa champions league final.. and that was somewhere around 10 days back. haha quite a few things have happened along the way..

thursday 18th mei
well i actually watched the final even though it wasn't my team playing.. the first 20 minutes were dull but after that the game picked off.. from a neutral point of view..the game was okay.. but anyone who watched the game.. most prob.. would have gotten the eerie feeling that barcelona were going to win it.. they have too much quality too lose to a 10-man team..
pity to you arsenal fans out there muahahaha ( sense the sarcasm here)

watched the game.. woke up early for class.. and after that went for futsal that day.. huhuhu.. hmm seeing as it's 10 days (it's 28th of may now..) i dun really recall what happened then... hmm jap.. referred to my handphone.. i distinctly remembered 3 people getting injured and one of them was directly my fault.. i turned to clear with my left leg.. i got the ball .. but i also got hanisyam's leg.. heh 50-50 challenge.. but even then it was a bad challenge la.. hmm i've tried to cut down on these kind of challenges.. before.. i even did sliding challenges.. muahaha.. best memang best tapi not preferable to do it on your own friends..

that night. went to watch da vinci code dekat JJ .. hmm pi with annas,yuhana,rahman n ken..
almost half of imu was there at the time.. haha siap ada yg pegi ngan rombongan lagi. macam rombongan kak kiah terlepas rumah org gile.. haha .. the show was supposed to be somewhere around 11.50 p.m. we went there at 10.30 rasanya.. because we needed to pick up the tickets and buy one more for the tickets..

comments regarding the movie : hmm the movie reminded me of national treasure ..
the difference is just that da vinci code is about a so called controversial topic by our non-muslim friends.. hmm from my point of view.. it was a peculiar movie.. needless to say.. memang memesongkan akidah umat islam zaman sekarang.. the belief of muslims is that Nabi Isa a.s. was one of the greatest prophets and he was one of the ulul-azmi.. and Prophet Muhammad S.a.W.(peace be upon him) said (somewhere to this effect) that the prophet that was closest to him was Nabi Isa a.s.. the movie was good in a sense that they painted Nabi Isa a.s. in a different light.. it was also interesting to see the outrage of certain communities towards the movie.. and this was from groups who looked at muslims in disdain when we protested against the caricatures of our beloved Prophet Muhammad ( pbuh).. freedom of speech my foot.. haha i abstain from further comment..

note regarding the movie : hmm kak miha ada sms.. don't aggravate my back pain or kena neck pain je nanti.. wonder why she said that...

friday 19th May
predictably the next day.. i didn't turn up ward rounds the next day.. biasa le nothing on.. just went to imu somewhere around 12.. pi ambik rahman ngan si ezran..went for friday prayers... and petang tuh ims annas ngan si hanis.. the only people that i know of from the people presenting.. the only thing that i gained was... er wait.. er.. nothing much.. in fact i dun remember much pun =P maybe the thing was a bit too long winded kot.. hmm that night i went back to Pj because the next day tuan mufti datang mengajar kat rumah.. it's a monthly thing

if i remember correctly .. that saturday morning tuh pun buleh sempat berchatting lagi.. macam2 padahal kerja byk .. haha anyway the weekend was pleasantly overwhelming? wallahuwa'lam

p/s regarding majlis ilmu tuh :
i think i've mentioned this but anyway repetition is a form of learning .. so i'll repeat it again.. with the hope that people reading this and especially me will practice it in our daily lives if possible insya-Allah..

imam ghazali sebut somewhere to this effect
" sesiapa yg tidak beristighfar setiap hari, maka hidupnya akan sial"

there are certain people who say kalu solat fardhu.. bila baca surah tak buleh baca lebih satu.. but from what i've learned.. there was once sahabat rasul dia baca al fatihah and then al-ikhlas,al-alaq ngan an nass pada rakaat kedua solat die.. one person came to the Prophet S.A.W. to report this.. and the prophet kept quiet as in to agree.. then he said.. "sesungguhnya dia adalah ahli syurga"
and also to recite al-ikhlas is like you've recited one third of the quran.. basically if u recite it 3 times..

1/3 al quran x 3 al-ikhlas = 1 al quran

anyway that weekend i had to go back early to seremban seeing as that we had CP with dato kanda on monday.. we went to the wards and the it was packed with patients.. ward 3B huhu.. anyway everyone was there that night.. i was assigned four beds but only 2 were occupied.. alhamdulilah le.. dahle bebudak nih pi ngada2 nak buat cp for 16 patients malam tuh.. they were afraid that dato kanda will point to a patient and then to a student utk present.. hmm most of time he just shows a patient.. takdanya nak tunjuk kat student
mati le kalu nak cover semua

Monday ( Doom awaits, let's not keep him waiting then)

i've always adopted this mentality when i come up against certain things.. intimidating lecturers, big exams, life changing events all the stuff.. u get what i'm trying to say...
doom awaits us wherever and whenever we go.. why would we want to keep them waiting.. in this instance i am referring to DK... to me these things are sometimes more related to the mind.. it's the mind over matter stuff.. i say " if u don't mind, it doesn't matter then" .. i refuse to be overly intimidated by things in life.. to me you should go head on with things in life.. i distinctly remember that in KMB i was overly worried about the IMU interviews.. worrying that i'll screw up or something.. but then i aced the interview.. with no worries.. then it was the semester one exams.. then i heard about pharmacology.. then semester 3 along with the resit exams.. and then semester 5.. it doesn't necessarily just apply to academic stuff.. it can also apply to personal development.. for instance.. nak Menegur org ke.. hmm i've learned from the past.. that u should confront your demons.. never be afraid of something.. because if u look at things.. it shows that the end results is that.. i prevail in the end.. it didn't kill me , and maybe there was some good that came out from that matter.. maybe we evolved.. maybe we mutated into something more mature, maybe we've built character from that episode.. we've taken a step in life.. and life is all about taking steps.. would you be content in being stagnant? while seeing other people develop? having said that.. don't bite off more than you can chew..

yes.. i do get the eerie feeling in my gut sometimes.. the feeling that i'm not ready for life.. i'm not ready to be a doctor, i'm not ready to take this exam, i'm not ready to do this and that..
let me ask this? when will we be ready then? how do you know when you're ready? is there a meter somewhere in our head that'll beep anytime we're ready to face things in life? life is filled with unknown entities.. .. and with the guidance of Allah.. we'll ace the exams known as life insya-Allah
so screw doom and let's face him in the eye... and show them we're not afraid.. muahahah

Al-fatihah 6.. tunjukkanlah kami kepada jalan yg lurus..

wallahuwa'lam..

p/s: i'll continue later.. insya-Allah

hmmmph....

hmm quite a few things on my mind now.. i have somewhere around 4 posts in my mind.. but i'm not really interested in putting them on haphazardly.. i like continuity.. continuity in the process of writing.. hehe lebih kurang macam present history la.. speaking of histories.. i'm preparing for my cp tommorow with Prof Yushak.. at 8a.m. tommorow and also suturing and knotting with dato kanda.. hmm heh byk benda nak cerita.. but so little time.. i'll try to do some this weekend.. haha quite a few posts i've postponed writing since maulidur rasul.. i'm basically the epitomy of procrastination .. i'm the king of the kingdom of CULAS ness.. anyway.. i better return to my work.. here a some food for thought...

wasiat saidina umar al -khattab (r.a)

do not be deceived by someone's reputation

do not go by one's prayers and fasting but rather observe the truthfulness and wisdom of a person

the man who keeps his secrets retains the direction of his affairs

fear the man you hate

he is the most prudent man who can assess his own affairs

do not postpone today's work till tommorrow

that which goes back does not advance

he is likely to fall in evil ways who has no idea of evil

i judge a man's intelligence by the queries he makes

in your concern for others do not forget about yourself

take only a little of this world , you can lead a free existenc

it is easier not to indulge in vices than to repent

if gratitude and contentment are two mounts, i would not care which i was riding

Allah bless the man who discloses to me my weakness

A song by shannon noll ..

Shine - Shannon Noll

Get up, get out, get out, get out and lift your head
Come on, come on, get up out of bed
Today's the day you hold the world with your song
Go now, go now, go now, help escalate
Angels come down, help with this parade
To hear your voice ring out
Come on and shout it
Let your song be heard

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine

Hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now sing your hymn
This is the new national anthem
We will all stand on guard to let you be heard
Let go, let go, let go all the cannons
How beautiful this world has become
Now everyone will see what I believe
That these words should be sung

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world believes that you will shine

And if you fall
And if you fall
And if you trust then
Yes it will come true

Hey, hey
Yeah!

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
When all the world will stop to watch you shine

p/s : SHINE...

Bongkak2.. and Initiate Operation Gonjeng

haha just returned from futsal somewhere around 11.50 tadi.. hmm pegi main pukul 9p.m. played until 10.40 then went for dinner kat nadia tomyam.. haha .. so basically.. macm takda studi je malam nih.. everyone dok ajak tgk arsenal vs barca.. but naturally.. i dun really care sangat nak tgk ke tidak.. most prob tgk dua2 team pun very attack minded.. maybe it promises to be a good final.. but apart from liverpool punya final last year.. my memories of champions league finals.. to put it mildly.. bosan nak mampus... haha.. maybe i'm a bit biased kot.. but we'll see la if i get up tonight at 3.. it's already 1.20am..

hmm anyway best main futsal tadi.. haha had a good run around.. scored a few goals yg best.. haha tapi seperti biasa le.. tweaked lagi kaki kanan... haha dok swing my foot too much.. heh gile betul kalu dr. moira robertson tahu.. takpe.. esok main lagi futsal.. once an addict.. always an addict.. anyways.. i've stopped being keeper dah.. can't really take the risk of diving around in the court.. scored three cracking goals..muahaha bongkak2

haha had my first tbl.. ngan dato kanda tadi.. dahle kena ngan die sebab tak penah tgk thyroid swelling per se.. haha i've seen neck swellings la.. not thyroid swellings.. haha at least i'm upfront about it.. ada yg apprehensive takut kena ngan dato kanda sebab tak penah tgk thyroid swelling. semua ngaku pennah tgk.. hampeh tul.. haha takpe.. bercakap benar walaupun pahit.. lepas nih azam utk carik thyroid swelling.. haha anyway i redeemed myself in front of him after that.. answered the question why a thyroglossal cyst moves up when u protrude a tongue.. haha.. soalan senang tapi saja je tambah clinical examination.. to make up for the earlier embarassment.. hmm basically thyroglossal cyst moves up with the protrusion of the tongue as it's attached to the base of the tongue... simple maa.. it's recommended that u evaluate this by palpating the cyst when the patient protrudes the tongue.. you'll get a tugging feeling.. u can also see on inspection but that'll be a bit harder.. recommended that you palpate it.. hahaha.. terus lepas tuh tak kena target.. bongkak2..

hmm anyway i need to buck up la for the next 4 weeks.. dok playing the fool je.. haha dahle dato kanda tanya sape yg tak penah datang on call masa weekend.. rasanya macam semua tak penah datang.. tapi semua ngaku penah.. hampeh.. haha for sure i won't be going on call this weekend.. ada majlis kat pj this weekend.. tuan mufti datang ngajar lagi.. it's a monthly thing.. so kena ada kat pj le.. biasa le.. org2 pangkal kena ada.. hmm as the tabligh people say.. azam insya-Allah.. usaha pun nak kena ada... so that's why most probably i'm sacrificing the champions league final kot.. we'll see la.. i need my rest

tadi dapat prof yushak again for CP.. huhu.. 2 kes present for 3 hours.. predisposing factor for DVT.. haha we were presenting to him dekat bawah kipas.. Prof Yushak was by the window.. dia dok adjust2 tingkap nak cuba letak tangan dia kat situ.. haha bila tak dapat.. dia ambik langsir ngan peluk langsir tuh.. he did that for 10 minutes.. me, fizzi ngan annas dah dok cuba nak tahan gelak dah masa tuh.. si yuhana dok sengih je kat sebelah prof yushak.. haha.. he's ok la.. it's just that it's tedious. dahle.. i was 2 minutes late for CP.. lepas tuh pegi buat stunt naik 8 tingkat pakai tangga.. gile best.. what a way to start the day..

hmm tadi semua dapat dato kanda induced diarrhoea and abdominal cramps.. associated with somnolence haha.. semua dok takut kena goreng ngan dia dalam tbl.. semua dok le baca buku dalam lib.. semua dok sakit perut je.. haha me excluded la... i've reached the mokhsa@nirvana of learned helplessness.. let things be.. so what if i screw up.. haha as long as it's not during the exams..

Operation gonjeng.. hmm i made an oath to go gonjeng if i passed the semester 5 finals.. and i still haven't fulfilled that nazar.. so basically tadi dah pakat ngan si annas.. to do so after convocations.. i was a bit reluctant last time because i didn't want people to think i was following a fad or trend at the time.. haha but now.. to think of it.. who cares anyway... haha

jokes of the day :
CSU in Bukit Jalil
CSU doctor : why do you do the normal left limb first before you proceed to the right limb which has the problem of (insert disease here)?
another friend: because the left limb is closer to me

CSU in Seremban

prof ramesh jutti : when is a digital rectal examination contraindicated in a patient ?
my friend : when the patient has no anus..

Paint it Black...it's now 4.40 a.m.

Paint it Black - Rolling Stones

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens ev'ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facin' up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the settin sun
My love will laugh with me before the mornin comes
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm,...
I wanna see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah!
hmm it is now 4.41 a.m in the morning.. i woke up somewhere around 2a.m. went to sleep somewhere around 9pm tadi.. ngantuk gile.. i took my painkiller ngan anti histamines.. tetiba je jadi giddy ngan drowsy..went to pasar after study circle as usual..tapi hari nih pi ngan si rahman.. toba takda.. dok tersangkut kat rumah patient cfcs die.. haha nak kena jadi delivery boy le pulak tadi.. jangka nak bangun pukul 11.. but alas.. things don't always turn out as you plan.. anyway.. i'm now studying for tbl tomorrow.. haha sebab dengan dato' kanda nanti.. haha dun really want to get slaughtered masa tbl.. i've covered thyroglossal cyst, cat scratch disease, branchial cyst, primary neoplasia of lymph glands, ischaemic contracture of sternomastoid, pharyngeal pouch.. haha tak cover lagi thyroid disorders.. anyway nak tidur balik.. i'll resume the rest tomorrow.. as long as i have SOME knowledge.. ok le kot.. kalu tak nanti crap je le.. what to do.. haha
..

alas.. another good night.. haha

You Will Never Walk Alone... experience the Liverpool high..

What a night it has been.. i can't begin describing the liverpool vs west ham cup final.. it was nerve wrecking, it was nail biting, it was reminiscent of istanbul.. it was the epitomy of a liverpool high.. forget drugs.. i'll take football anytime..

let me describe the game..
liverpool were lacklustre throughout the game and relied on gerrard to drag the team to the finish line.. liverpool conceded two very soft goals in the first half.. and cisse pulled one back for the reds.. that was his only contribution on the day.. alonso was off the pace.. so was sissoko.. riise was getting slaughtered by the overlapping runs of harewood.. he was too central to my liking.. there's a reason they call them a left back.. ur supposed to stay on the left.. not in the centre.. you dolt.. riise was exposed during the game.. kewell had an injury.. so much for a big game player.. he can't cut it when it matters.. gerrard was overwhelmed in the first half but he was up to it in the 2nd half.. hyppia and carragher was overworked and exposed.. and reina to put it mildly.. was eccentric.. the strikers.. were.. bengong.. nadda.. nil.. zero... no build up, no will, nothing.. only the one goal from cisse.. we need to strengthen the forward line..
hmm cisse pulled one back for liverpool after west ham scored 2.. gerrard scored a scorcher from the centre of the west ham penalty box.. and i thought it was smooth sailing after that..

haha think again.. liverpool manage to make everything hard for themselves.. yet again a mistake by reina.. but maybe it was a lucky goal.. reina was off his line.. a fundamental thing that even i can teach him, harhar but even then.. enough said..
hmm me and my brother were already resigned to defeat.. when all of sudden gerrard scores from 30 yards.. what a goal... it reminded me of the high of winning the champions league the year before.. it's up there together with his goal against olympiakos.. after that liverpool hung on for the shootouts and reina saved 3 penalties.. very good saves if i might add... this is why i watch football and this is why liverpool are the best... haha some might like to differ to my opinions.. but really.. i dun give a screw.. hahaha..

hmm after that sambung berchat ngan org GILER.. and now it's 4.34a.m. and i'm suddenly very sleepy haha.. what a night it has been... : ) muaahahhaha.. i'm still hyper though..

p/s: now i hv to be careful of what i put on the blog.. haha ye le tu..

You Will Never Walk Alone...

Accumulated Birthday Wishes.. for the 3 parasites... muahaha

hmmm haven't updated this blog for quite a while.. was waiting sampai harijadi parasit semua dah lepas so that i could wish them together at once.. furthermore.. ada org yg dok mintak duit utk buat survey dok baca blog.. muahaha..
takda malasnya nak update...

hmm returning to ze parasites...
just wanted to wish u a happy birthday to you old farts and so that u may age gracefully and fulfill the terms of your contract ... here's to hoping that u find someone else this year.. to financially prey on themm .. i have my fingers crossed.. haha if anything.. korang datang seremban dulu la.. baru buleh nak negotiate ape2 pun.. haha dahle korang semua sendiri lupa harijadi memasing.. hahaha.. ingatkan korang lupa aku punya je..
ape pun.. selamat hari tua.. may all ur wishes ( that does not financially involve me) come true..
bila nak belanja aku makang?

happy birthday to all the pisau cukur's..
end of transmission...

haha it's 3 am and i'm damn lazy...

just wanted to post a song.. original version is by metallica.. but i like the cover song done by staind..

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do n
ever cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

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CFCS presentation went well today..
resolved my groups research project..
G6PD deficiency..
quite a few nice things happenings.. haha even though quite a few trying to pull me
back to the ground.. haha trust me.. i'm level headed insya-Allah.. thanks anyway..
still feeling the pain..
going back to KL tomorrow night.. seeing the tuan mufti tomorrow.. my father and
mother is going to be in seremban tomorrow.. just a courtesy call..
looking forward to a rest... just that i've to finish my reports by monday.. haha
we'll see..
and LIVERPOOL vs WEST HAM this saturday...

The 100th post...

hmmm time flies it seems.. i started blogging somewhere around september last year and i recall the reason was that i was very upset regarding a matter.. 99 posts on and now here i am in may 2006 feeling much more happier.. =) also regarding a matter of national secret.. it shows u how things can fluctuate in life.. as forrest gump said.. life is like a box of chocolates.. you won't really know what you'll get.. it has its ups and downs and i've had my fair share of them.. i think. wallahuwa'lam.. anyway.. nowadays.. i'm not really the grumpy person i was last year.. however i've retained some of the grumpiness..
among the things contributing to the grumpiness...

• i have CP tomorrow morning with miss jasiah.. i'm supposed to be presenting by my patient has been discharged.. we'll see tomorrow.. i want to present the case.. haha..
• busy with my CFCS report and presentation which is supposed to be this wednesday.. depends on the tutors whether they'll be able to make it
• my hand and back hurts a lot nowadays.. alhamdulilah i just got a tab of painkillers to last me the week.. dislocated my shoulder for the second time.. it's been okay in the past one week after the dislocation. but now it's tensing up and throbbing.. hmm most probably healing process la kot..
• need to do a case report and 2 case summaries this week..
• i'm tired and sleep deprived..

despite all this.. i'm on cloud nine.. due to reasons that can't be divulged.. hahaha =)
as i've said to a few of my friends.. life ain't easy.. it sure isn't a breeze.. that's why it's called life.. that's what makes it more interesting.. imagine life without its trials and tribulations.. it'll be nice.. but it won't be life... haha.. the trials and tribulations are the things that defines our lives and moulds our character.. so i'm hoping with fingers crossed.. Allah will help me through this moment ... insya-Allah.. never lose faith in HIM , insya-Allah you'll be rewarded for ur efforts.. either here or in the hereafter..

here's to having faith no matter the odds, no matter the tribulations.. we'll make it with HIS will..

anyways i'm doing surgery posting nowadays.. semalam kuar makan ngan kak naiemah ngan ann.. belanja kak naiemah utk harijadi dia last month... haha makan kat man tomyam .. selamat duit ku..

anyways i should resume working on my case presentation.. will post up when i have the time...

Busy as a bee.. haha and someone turned 28..

hmm haven't had the chance to update the blog in the past few days.. more like.. didn't want to bother doing it actually.. haha biasa le.. well.. it's been and eventful past few days.. last thursday..
i had one of the most depressing moment in my life.. had to hear a very long winded prensentation during family medicine.. conducted by dr yong.. it was.. to put it mildly.. severely excruciating.. hahaha i had the urge to and hit the presenter... tapi biasa le.. saya seorang yg penyabar..

friday.. was the last day for family medicine punya posting.. i haven't gained that much in fam med kot.. byk main je.. at least now i'm in surgery .. i'm opening the books la jugak haha.. anyway on friday there was a plenary with dr phua kai lit.. but i went to giant senawang. beli meja utk komputer.. muahahaha.. i was supposed to go to paroi and pay for the field booking for goodwill games.. after dah habis bayar semua.. tgk jam dah lambat dah.. so rather than rush pi imu nak catch the tail end of PKL's punya lecture.. me, faiz and toba decided pegi giant senawang .. shopping.. ahhaha we met anak pakcik amir kat senawang.. si siti ngan aishah and another guy.. dating kot..

anyway my finances dah tahap tenat dah sebenarnya.. nasib le kak dija ada deposit duit.. this week alone.. i've finished quite a few bucks on fuel money alone... hhuhu
anyway.. that friday nite.. i went to makro with ezran pegi beli air mineral utk goodwill games and did the preparations for the next day together with rahman,pakcik and wis..

goodwill games.. was fun la kot.. hmm i was playing goalkeeper(yes2 i know.. degil) haha .. quite a bit stupid of me risking aggravating my injury.. tapi biasa le.. bila nama tgh pun degil.. mohd degil harris..
haha anyway we lost 6-4 and i conceded two of the most embarassing goals in my life.. haha however ada le jugak two of the most spectacular saves in my life.. so basically it evens out.. haha anyway the other team had two penalties.. i almost saved one penalty and i went the wrong way for the other one.. heh dahle cam kenyir bergolek dalam lumpur je throughout the whole game.. hahaha i was covered with mud that day.. in front of goal penuh ngan lumpur..
hmm that day imu seremban lost to imu bukit jali 6-5 .. hmm dengar kata ada le manusia2 tertentu dok scoring masa netbal.. haha.. basically the whole day was occupied with goodwill games.. and that afternoon gabby datang .. muahaha dah lama gila tak jumpa dia masa tuh.. he stayed two nights in villa cinta kenyir.. haha basically semua org dok main game je..

i started my surgery posting on monday..it's going well.. best gak.. kaco HO.. kaco student nurse.. dasar lelaki gatal.. uncurable tul masalah nih .. hahaha... sayangnya i am a bit shy nak kaco sesapa... haha although a bit unbelievable.. anyway.. this week.. agak ... er... pissed off maybe with certain things.. not really pissed off.. maybe disappointed kot.. one of my friends fessed up recently.. that she lied to me once.. to instigate me to do something.. so basically she adopted the machiavellian approach la kot.. she's a bit off target if she thinks that i do things on people's orders.. i do things on my own accord.. when i want and how i want.. sadly... she gets a different picture.. well.. we'll just leave that at that... observed endoscopy on tuesday .. mr paul was doing it.. a good experience la kot.. and today i went to SOPD .. datang2 terus jumpa mr davaraj. he posted us into mr lee's room.. quite interesting cases la today.. phimosis,testicular swelling etc... went to canteen.. and met my 'junior' who came for the hospital visit.. she's still in bukit jalil.. last semester there...

returning to Monday..
night.. me, k.mehapah,ann ngan aziemah went to curry leaf restaurant.. celebrate harijadi kak naiemah .. heh memang lame... ada ke harijadi pi makan kat curry leaf.. haha.. there were no cakes or candles.. just a candle.. stuck onto a tomato on my fish and chip.. ape dah.. heh the fish and chips tasted like curry.. haha so basically that day.. kak naiemah turned 28 years old.. tua gila.. tak lama lagi osteoperosis.. haha.. anyway.. happy birthday.. selamat tua. selamat osteo.. selamat degenerate.. and may Allah bless you and fulfill your prayers..

p/s: on reasons of libel and copyright suits.. there will be no picture of the old fart/lady who turned 28 .. haha memain..

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this is true itchiness

muahaha.. my eyes are teary and blurry and i'm sneezing non stop.. this is most probably as i have commenced taking spirulina again.. it happens every time when i start taking it and after a while it'll become ok and i'll be the empitomy of healthiness.. haha aku dah geylong.. aaaahhh my sinus... i'm studying now( believe it or not albeit quite long breaks in between.. but my studies has been a bit disrupted anyway by the itchiness in me face) hmm maybe something i ate too... dun recall taking seafood or anything.. hmm anyway i'm too lazy too post much .. tired.. esok ada clerking .. and i dun feel well... make me a very grumpy boy.. haha..
just took my medications.. and officially my last available painkiller.. need to get some more..
and i'm playing football for goodwill games.. haha i'll take it easy la for that game.. dun want to risk anything... later.. need to lie down for a while..

p/s : life is easier to take than you'd think, all that's necessary is to accept the impossible, do the indispensable, and bear the intolerable.. ( kathleen norris) haha tata...

here's a new song from lifehouse.. haha i'm addicted to them..

Blind - Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carr
yA past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this timeI never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That ewithout verything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go