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Nun KAU teguh di sana
Pengasih dan Penyayang

Pun ku masih terleka
Meneguk ihsanMu
Walau ku sedari..

Oh nyamannya ...
Bila diperlukan RinduMu

waiting for el classico...

hmmm i'm waiting for real madrid vs barcelona...
melepak kat rumah abbas sementara die single..
yesterday liverpool 1-2 tottenham.. unsuprising..
but please give me a break.. let something go right..
let the traffic light turn green
let it rain..
let me want to play football
let me a find a bag of money.. preferabbly in 100 ringgit denominations..
let liverpool win the league title..
let something happen before i become indifferent and apathetic ..
i need something to go right now..
let me choose the right road ..
i came to a fork in my life once.. picked one..that didn't turn out so well apparently..

haha itu le manusia punye lumrah..
tak bersyukur dgn ape yg ada..
nak jugak liverpool menang..
tamakkkkkk......

i'm waiting to get unstuck now..
is there a cheat button anywhere?
U know when u get stuck in a game somewhere.. you always just stop for a while
go on the internet.. google walkthroughs/tips - stopping short of a cheat code... konon2 honorable la... ( I KNOW EVERYONE DOES THAT... YES YOU READING THIS.. I KNOW YOU GOOGLED CHEAT CODES) hahahaha

wouldn't it be easier , if i could just google.. cheat code- getting unstuck..
hmm that would probably make life a game then and dilutes the purpose of life..

signing out..
captain indifferent..
who wants to move on to hati batu now..
mengantukknye.. rasa nak tidur balik aaa..

It is hard to say goodbye...

This post has been deleted as..

Dear Shafaf Atmam ,
I love you..
Do not doubt that..

missing my eagle buddies..

well.. when i was in mrsm jasin... we had a group of people..
a group of friends shall we call it.. we were selected from the previous batches and we had selected a new batch to replace us..
to make an analogy - we would be similar to the guys in MRSM Taiping ( Dewa)

well the eagles did stupid guy stuff
patrol
security
read comics
perjuangkan kebaikan.. haha
fight!fight!fight!
Fight each other!

they were six of us
Garuda Malas - probably the taiko - Ruslin..
weird guy.. but everyone of us was weird - in our own way.. he is the person yg akan kena hempap tiap hari for 2 years - without fail - probably 2nd strongest in the group- could take us on anytime of the day..

Ketitir Sayu - Iqbal Saidi
- the 'playboy' of the group - believe it or not org paling jiwang dalam group nih
probably terlampau jiwang utk berlawan - the smooth talker -- haha but when push comes to shove.. he can kick it

Merlin Mamai - Mawardi
my bunk mate - we would do crazy things at night - lawan ngan pedang kayu la, ronda2 kat pavilion at 3a.m... dgn minyak rambut tencho die yg aku selalu pau..
org yg akan selalu kejut aku pagi and baca komik sambil pegang pedang kayu tarabas die.. hahaha

Raja Udang Mengantuk - Zakuan
the wise man of the group - the voice of reason - yg lain semua panas baran je
the BADAR ajk in our group - tak sure lak dia ajk ape.. one of my good friends..

Torpedo @ Paichow - Ameerulakbar- the only person yg aku tk ingat nama gelaran die sebab nama torpedo lebih popular
the one who taught me so much.. the one who taught me that there is a potential of good in people that i would have long give up on..
thanks meer..the strongest in the group
p/s -the one who had a fleeting crush on faya

Me- Helang Syahdu- cilakak punya nickname - due to the reason i was head over heels for someone then - as always.. always the insecure one - the hot headed one - the temperamental one.. hahaha

i still remember going 5 vs 1 - no care at all in the world
jumping across -4-5 people - even though jumping across a stool may not be possible for me anymore hahaha...
i miss those times, but well , we have to grow up sometime - sooner or later..
i've only been able to keep up with zak and bal saidi.. wonder how the other 3 are doing
haish i am probably a fool for reliving those days..
where everything was just something stupid..
no live or death decisions ..
no worries..

Just FIGHT!

-wallahuwa'lam-

No S.O.S call yet.. leave me be for awhile

After a long protracted battle... the horse was brought to the back of the barn and shot in the head without too much fuss.. replaced by a new horse..

wallahuwa'lam

People come and go..
The only constant is Allah..

I will never walk alone..

speechless

everyone who knows me , knows that anytime i start blogging... i'm in a very deep hole that i dug myself in...

the question is...
i've bet almost 3/4 of what i have..
do i go for broke.. or do i cut my losses...

do i go for the spectacularly crazy... or go out with a whimper... cursing my luck?

heck i don't know