aaaaaagghhhhhh....

i'm currently.. very stressed out..
i think for once i've reached learned helplessness quite fast.. haha
hmmm.. exams are about around 28 hours away..
i still haven't read up quite a few things( to put it mildly)

i seriously can't see or predict the outcome of this exam.. especially MEQ..
however.. this remorse is a bit too late.. and probably the blame lays squarely on me..
hmmm here's hoping for the best...
pray for me and my friends.. may everyone get through the exams safely insya-Allah

a few songs to ponder on...

sheila on 7-berhenti berharap..

aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
dengan mampu menerangi
sudut gelap hati ini
aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat
kenapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan...
Chorus:
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu
bridge:
kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita
Back to chorus**

Good Charlotte - Hold on

This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare

But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Your days you say they’re way too long
And your nights you can’t sleep at all (hold on)
And you’re not sure what you’re looking for
But you don’t want to no more
And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for but you don’t want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you’re doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

You'll Never Walk Alone...

When you walk through a storm
hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.


pray for us.... insya-Allah...

Manglish...

well the pictures aren't that clear.. but here are 2 examples of malaysian english that i encountered...

the first one was in a bungalow in A'famosa resort.. went there for the Raya Haji...
Water heater : please switch on at least 10 minutes to let it hot..

this was taken from a patient's charts when i was doing gynaecology.. my last posting for semester 9...
the patient was reviewed by a dietetic student and the lecturer certified the notes that he wrote..
patient had ovarian cancer and the observation was..
"pt look very illness.."

p/s: yes i'm mean.. and i also need a better camera to capture this gaffes...

Al-Fatihah..

i've been wanting to post this from last week.. it's been slipping my mind..
Al-fatihah kepada arwah ibu dr Zain dan arwah ibu Dr Zainab who passed away in the past
month.. and Suharto , the man who ended the malaysian-indonesian confrontation.. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas mereka.. dan tempatkan mereka di kalangan org2 yg diredhai-nya..

i don't do this too often...

well.. on sunday night as i was trying to burn time after bosan2 study .. i went out and watched the tv.. i'd watch anything most of the time.. and well me and rahman tuned into 8tv.. then i remembered there's this new show that they've been hyping up for the past month.. ghost.. beyond the grave etc2..

well .. we saw the pilot episode.. and to tell you the truth.. it's actually quite interesting due to the fact that they're trying to tell a story which is quite different from the normal fare that you get normally..

here's the promo..

on the precipice.. anyone care to give me a push?

heck i just realised it's 2a.m. on the 1st of february.. that means there's only 12 days to exams..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

currently i have a headache... unknown cause.. probably the insomnia..
insomnia .. no cause at all.. i have ruled out stress..
pain in ze ankle... due to the fact that some numskull who doesn't know when to stop ,trying to relocate my ankle with a sliding tackle..
i'm seriously lacking motivation..hmm scratch that.. lacking direction in studying..
exacerbated by the fact that i just had opthalmo revision class with prof C.S.R ... i just remember the word.. the lower jone... or was it zone? hahaha
not helped by the fact that the internet@screamyx@devil incarnate has been acting up recently..
don't get me wrong.. it has been acting up for quite a while already.. but now it's actually surpassing itself in it's goal of annoying the h3ll out of me..
i've been wheezing for the past 3 weeks.. ack2 coughing and all the stuff.. just recently went to the doctor.. ironic that..
oh yeah... on the way to dinner with kash tonight.. we came across a python crossing the road in front of kolej mara seremban.. haha nasib sempat ambik evasive action..
hmmm here's to hoping things improve over the weekend.. waiting for the "sem 10"... pau2


heh anyhow.. let's not get distracted and pay attention to the task at hand..
i'm sure by next week i'll bring out my exam anthem from good charlotte..
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan aku..
pray for me..
signing off for now...

p/s : We Are Brothers Forever.. hahahaha

postings that i need to cover.. just as a reminder to myself

Family Medicine... hmmm what to cover?
Internal Medicine.. i'm seriously having trouble starting internal medicine revision
Surgery.. currently underway..
Paediatrics... aaarrghhh
Psychiatry... i'm having post traumatic disorder or something..
Orthopaedics.. hmm relative easy insya-Allah..
Obstetrics - hmm hopefully okay
Gynaecology- insya-Allah..
ENT - buleh2..
Emergency Med : errrrr
Dermato and Opthalmo : arrrgghhhhhhhhhhhh again...

buleh2 yakin buleh...

p/s no 2 : pray for us who are going for our exams.. hopefully cemerlang insya-Allah.. You'll Never Walk Alone.. oh yeah liverpool lost to a last minute penalty last night at upton park..
patutla.. hahaha

Something light for the day...

hehe assalamualaikum.. this actually livened up my mood.. with exams and all..
enjoy the clip..




We're Brothers Forever..

I am your brother
Your best friend forever
Singing the songs
The music that you like
We're brothers til the end of time
Together forever til the end of time
I am your brother
Your best friend forever
Singing the songs
The music that you like
We're brothers til the end of time
Together or not, you're always in my heart
Your hurting feelings
Will reign no more.