Recently we had a colleague who was actually treated for NSTEMI, he was a smoker , now just a vaper ( is that the correct term? ) He is about my age. Alhamdulillah he recovered well and now has started working.
Today another one of our colleagues had a bout of chest pain . Suspected to be unstable angina possibly . This guy refused to go to the ED , ardent smoker and vaper if i am not mistaken .
Talk about wake up calls . A reminder for us to take care of our health. Too many obligations and responsibilities to shoulder . Would be a bit irresponsible to neglect our health.
Need to start back with sports , for now let's target
- weekly badminton
- weekly futsal
- 1 in 3 brisk walk
Kena maintain KPI InsyaAllah Wish me success
I have a soft spot for Sheila on 7, my favourite album is still 07 Des
A song for all the smokers and their cigarettes
Lapang Dada
Apa yang salah dengan lagu iniKenapa kembali ku mengingatmuSeperti aku bisa merasakanGetaran jantung dan langkah kakimuKe mana ini akan membawaku Kau harus bisaBisa berlapang dadaKau harus bisaBisa ambil hikmahnyaKarena semuaSemua tak lagi samaWalau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya Di jalan yan setapak kecil iniSeperti ku mendengar kau bernyanyiKau tahuKau tahuRasaku juga rasamu
Kau harus bisaBisa berlapang dadaKau harus bisaBisa ambil hikmahnyaKarena semuaSemua tak lagi samaWalau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya Ke mana ini akan membawakuAku takkan pernah tahu Kau harus bisaBisa berlapang dadaKau harus bisaBisa ambil hikmahnyaKarena semuaSemua tak lagi samaWalau kau tahu dia pun merasakannya Mengirim cahaya untukmu
So basically i waited another 2 years for my next blog posting .. If that isn't the epitomy/epitome(unlikely epitope) of procrastination , i am not sure what is.. hahaha
2/11/2016 was our 4th wedding anniversary . It has been a very happy 4 years. Alhamdulillah - here's to another 40 more years insya-Allah .
Prior to that something mildly peculiar happened - got a call from a familiar random number - looked like a scam number. Didn't answer - was too occupied with the new PS4 that the Missus got me.
I would like to say that i didn't make any post for the past 2 years because i was busy for my Part I exams . Lucky number 4 - passed it on my 4th attempt - Alhamdulillah
Came back from work today - saw that the car was scratched at the back end of the car - suspecting the work of a random stranger or a white whale . My initial response was understandably not receptive/furious - getting your car scratched for no reason is not something pleasant,especially if you didn't hit/scratch any car or double parked.
I considered numerous alternatives
1) Facebook rant as usual
2) Doa for revenge
3) Hendap kereta kat parking lot besok
Then i thought about all the above options , imagined all the time and effort it would take and made the most logical decision , play FIFA 17. Oh yeah , forgive and forget too . The Prophet ﷺ said that: “Whoever suffers an injury and forgives (the person responsible), God will raise his status to a higher degree and remove one of his sins” (Al-Tirmidhi).
Age has mellowed me , for the better i would feel. I do not see the point of unnecessary conflict/drama. Takes up too much time and effort (physically and emotionally ) . In other words , I am just too old for this shit .
In the grand scheme of things , this was just a minor hiccup - no lasting harm (apart from the resale value of the car) .
Now I am just sat here at my table - listening to Sheila on 7 and Peterpan.
I am content, Alhamdulillah.
I really do understand the saying 'everything happens for a reason '.
Sorry for the big gap between posts.. I suddenly had the urge to just post something here.. after almost about 3 years of inactivity.. was a bit occupied with work , getting married, a baby :)
So .. here's a picture of our baby who was born on the 10th of December 2013 at 9.49 a.m.
Introducing our bundle of joy(at times with a bundle of poop in the diapers)
Hana Maryam
Alhamdulillah :)
Will take awhile to put everything up.. a bit busy with cleaning and clearing things up
so stay tuned...
Well.. 21st of November came and went .. without much fuss.. Maybe it was earlier than that but.. officially that was the date that the fiasco ended finally..
To say that i would like to turn back time and do things another way.. would probably be a lie.. Hindsight is always a good thing.. but i would probably be different person if these things did not happen.. Who am i to say what will happen in life.. i did not have a clue then.. and i don't have a clue now.. Even though unbelievable.. i am still going on a day to day basis.. I tried planning ahead last time around.. that didn't really work out for me..
Well , i'm not sure whether i've mentioned this in my past posts@moans.. But it wasn't really that hard to walk away.. sure the month of november 2010 i was breaking my head trying to reason everything out .. to come to a decision of what to do.. Agonizing over the direction i would take.. in the end , the decision was easy probably.. I probably told some of my close friends what actually happened.. but not the full version of it kot..
Buat istikharah.. quite a few times.. and actually had a long chat about 2-3 times if i'm not mistaken with Netball.. Well on the 21st .. buat lagi satu round.. a very long one after zohor and asar.. then tertidur.. that night i was due to actually call someone... and masa asar tuh mimpi la.. One of the more weirder dreams i've ever had kot.. well i was by the seaside.. with a very close friend.. and there was someone drowning out in the sea.. and i swam to save ( technically in real life i don't swim - so as not to give false expectations that i would actually save someone drowning kan) - well the close friend gave me a thumbs up.. and probably weirdly i took that as a signal that this was the end of the road for me and Netball.. Not sure who i saved, but i'm quite sure who was on the seaside with me.. And no.. not divulging who though.. some secrets i bring to the grave..
In the aftermath of that.. i probably went into rebound.. There were 2 of them.. one more than the other.. It was a bit severe.. the rebound.. But i think i probably found myself in familiar territory.. In the sense that this was Deja' Vu.. I felt that this situation seemed familiar.. Probably , i didn't want to go through another 8 years of what i just came out of.. Something not reciprocal.. probably just a bit too tired for that.. To say that i wasn't tempted and tried would be a lie kot.. some knew of what i actually did.. with varying degrees of support.. haha but probably it wasn't to be.. With a heavy heart i tried to move on.. to a degree of success insya-Allah..
This is a song for my crushes and rebound.. I wish them all the best.. and hope that they'll find someone nice..
Being bitter -some may actually think that i'm a bit bitter in the aftermath of all this.. which is very far from the truth.. sure it sucked.. the way that it was conducted.. with all the stories that 'people actually sat down with me and had a talk' circulating among mutual friends.. It also didn't help the fact that an obfuscated individual actually walked up to mutual friends and try to justify what they did.. Choice phrases from the conversations would be.. 'masuk line awal' 'kampung pengantin'
This in truth actually peeved me initially.. I felt it was a bit juvenile added with the fact that i've done nothing at all.. I just kept quiet and went on my way.. Even if i did say a thing it was to close friends or to actually deny things that were untrue.. I believe in maintaning form and observing politeness.. Courtesy is important for me.. I do not slander.. I do not speak of untruths.. It is just not me.. I'm not bitter.. i probably WAS just a bit peeved then.. Nowadays.. i just don't bother with it anymore.. I just hope to be civil and polite.. I'm not bitter.. I probably told this to Kak Dell.. i feel something .. but i can't really describe it properly.. but anyhow i wish the best and it is my hope that i do not come across anymore untrue or juvenile stories.. We should actually act our age and be able to tell what is wrong and what is right.. Everyone is old enough to actually think for themselves .. Live long and prosper.. whatever..
By my book.. Alhamdulilah i've not wronged anyone..
On another note , some may say i've actually stopped talking to them in the aftermath of all this.. I probably can't deny this .. as i feel that i need to cut my exposure to hypocrites.. This may be a strong word.. but those involved should just actually look themselves in the mirror.. I do not need to be patronized.. or even pitied.. no thanks..
To put it succintly and politely.. You can just get lost for all i care.. This is not hate talking.. this is just apathy..
I am grateful for good friends that i have.. Who called it as it is.. Faya.. Abbas.. K.Naiemah.. Lydia.. Didi.. Kak Dell.. Kak Dija.. Kak Meha.. Din.. Cherap.. Most of them were brutally honest with me.. Thank you for that.. I was the one who did not heed their advise..
Napoleon Bonaparte once said -A true man hates no one. I don't really I'm very much a glass half-full kind of guy..I am glad i'm still that way even after what has happened.. the trials and tribulations of life shouldn't bring us down.. it is only supposed to make us stronger..
Sure experience can be too harsh a teacher.. but there's no good will come from just sitting around and complaining..
Now i just want to advance...
Advance, and never halt, for advancing is perfection. Advance and do not fear the thorns in the path, for they draw only corrupt blood. Khalil Gibran
Life is easier to take than you think; all that is necessary is to accept the impossible, do without the indispensable and bear the intolerable. - Kathleen Norris-
Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to KP.. Happy birthday to you.. Mana hadiah daa?
Liking this picture...
p/s - i'm slightly addicted to one republic.. so i'm ending it with a song from them.. lalalala...
I need another story Something to get off my chest My life gets kinda boring Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red From all the truth that I've said Come by it honestly I swear Thought you saw me wink, no I've been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear Something that were like those years I'm sick of all the insincere So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time Don't need another perfect line Don't care if critics ever jump in line I'm gonna give all my secrets away
My God Amazing that we got this far It's like we're chasing all those stars Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news, all the problems that we could solve And when a situation rises, just write it into an album Seen it straight to go I don't really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear Something that were like those years I'm sick of all the insincere So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time Don't need another perfect line Don't care if critics ever jump in line I'm gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got not shame Got no family I can blame Just don't let me disappear I'mma tell you everything
So tell me what you want to hear Something that were like those years I'm sick of all the insincere So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time Don't need another perfect line Don't care if critics ever jump in line I'm gonna give all my secrets away
So tell me what you want to hear Something that were like those years Sick of all the insincere So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time Don't need another perfect line Don't care if critics ever jump in line I'm gonna give all my secrets away
